Showing posts with label prayer. Show all posts
Showing posts with label prayer. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Miracle of the Firefall

Staring into a wildfire down the sights of a water pistol: A decent comparison for fighting fires in the DR during a drought.

We've had one rainshower in the last 3 months. No drizzles, no sprinkles, no afternoon cloudbursts. So the grass has dried into straw, palm-thatched roofs wait like ready kindling, and most of our yard resembles a tinderbox.

Enter a neighbor who decided today is a great day for brushburning in the field next door.

*FACEPALM*

Around 9:30 Tim comes in grumbling about the stupid neighbor who has a brushfire he can't handle.

Trena: Did you call the fire department?
Tim: They won't do anything anyway. They probably don't even have water.

The fire department unfortunately has the reputation of showing up with empty water tanks, it's true. And our electricity is out, though we're on generator power, so we have limited access to the water that's in our own well.

Tim headed back outside, and Trena and I exchanged looks. Any report of fire in this dry spell is not encouraging. And then we both paused.

Trena, frowning: I hear it.
Me, with a wash of memories from the last time I heard this sound: I hear it too.

We get up and dash outside, neither of us expecting what we saw. Only feet from the fence separating our property from the neighbor's goat pasture was a wall of flame, steadily eating its way closer and closer to our parched grass and thatched roofs.






My mom read me Little House on the Prairie, folks. I know what happens when fire gets out of control in a dry field.

I've encountered fire a bit too closely on a couple of occasions now. The car accident with TUFW a couple of years ago, two years of horrendous wildfires in Colorado Springs, a couple of instances of near-wildfires started by crazies out near Cottonwood Creek behind the Doneys' house. Now this one.

So this is not a welcome sight.

Trena: My birds are going to die!

She rushes to find a garden hose to start dousing the thatched roofs of the birdcages. A cloud of smoke is wafting toward the poor trapped birdies.

Me, I stand there looking useless and contemplating homelessness, awash in the crackling, rippling flames and the burning heat that descended on us from above, amplified by the grass-fed bonfire next door. And then I get the brilliant idea that I am no good to anybody wearing flipflops, and I race upstairs to change into sneakers and frankly consider what I should pack if it comes down to that. Dratted panic.

Meanwhile, Conrad does call the fire department. And I join Yolanda and we race through the house shutting the persianas, the slatted window "shades" that are usually open all the time to let the breeze through, to keep them from letting in the smoke, which is already settling in an unsettling blue haze in the air.

And then I take these pictures and realize the only thing I can do is get people praying... so, thank you social media!

The fire department arrives within minutes, and they fight alongside our guys. But as suspected... they only have half a tank of water. So although from one side they can start drowning the flames with water from their hose, from the other side there is nothing but our yard workers pointing garden hoses with doubtful pressure and firemen running around with green branches they cut from the trees in the burning field.




Garden hoses were not meant to be firefighting tools, friends. And yet they were pretty much our only (physical) hope.


The firetruck quickly exhausts its supply of water, but by then thankfully it seems we are down to smoldering coconuts and palm trunks... no more open flames. Fire contained.



Firetruck and fire fighters pack up to leave, but they are no sooner down the road than we have another outburst of flames! Our guys all jump the fence and scramble to reconnect the hoses at a better angle to protect our property, and Conrad grabs a branch to beat it out DR-style. We don't bother to call the fire department back... with no water, what can they do anyway?

We are all grateful when they're successful... and we keep an eye on that field the rest of the day, thanking God for his protection. Bit nervewracking, that!

The following day, I ask Genaro to take me out to the field where the fire started because I have a sneaking suspicion about what I'll see: even though the fire came close, I had noted that it was almost as if there were a line that it did not cross. I wanted to see if that was true.


The goat field was coal black, but next to our property, in front of that big house (La Casa Grande) there in these photos, you can see the hedge of protection. It's almost an even line of untouched grass around our property. except the areas we doused with hose water, where it's wider. In the picture just above this paragraph, if you zoom in you can see that the leaves on the guayava trees are scorched at a level higher than the thatched roofs of the birdcages, but no sparks flew and caught flame. I know it's because people prayed.

I love seeing God's hand at work... 

A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
No harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent. (Ps. 91:8,9,10)


Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Protecting God...And Other Short-Lived Tales

Sometimes prayer is hard. Trust is hard. I don't have high expectations for the people around me...so I apply the same low expectations to God to make sure I don't get disappointed by him, too.

Do you ever find that it's hard to ask God for something specific? Sometimes if the conversation starts leaning any particular direction of desire, I’ll say, “Well, Lord, you know.” And then I shut up. Like I’m going to be a bother or he doesn’t want to hear it. Or something.

Because after all, he doesn’t deserve ridicule on my behalf, for failing me. His reputation doesn’t deserve damage. Besides, he’s the one with the all-powerful plan, so … whatever he says goes, right? Why should I ask, pray, plead? God always does what he wants in the end. If he doesn’t do what I ask, he’ll have a reason.

Yet we’re supposed to pray.

“It’s painful to ask,” my roommate commented to me once when I mentioned my question. “It’s painful to keep your heart open.”

Why is it painful? It's vulnerable. It leaves a part of us open and raw and available for damage...unless the one we're entrusting ourselves to is capable of holding us gently. I believe that part of us is a precious piece of the honesty involved in truly having a relationship with God.

I hazard a guess that sometimes what we call “faith in God’s sovereignty” actually provides a glitzy religious mask that no longer requires us to ask him for anything, since it disguises our fear that he will not do or be all that he has promised, fear that we will end up disappointed, discouraged, and discarded.

It also leads to a dangerous self-reliance that might also be called idolatry, as we look to ourselves (or maybe other sources) to provide the things that God has promised, things only he is able to provide.
I think my “faith” sometimes becomes either false optimism or a peculiar fatalism that simultaneously removes me from control (because God is sovereign) and removes God from any responsibility or authority if He doesn’t seem to answer (because he is sovereign, and he knows best).

 Oh, I’ll say it’s trust or faith, but I’m not actually willing to go out on a limb to ask for it, just in case God doesn’t come through for me the way I think He ought to. Then I won’t be disappointed, because well, my expectations weren’t all that high to begin with.

I’m protecting myself from being failed.
I’m protecting Him from failing me.
Because if He fails me, where will I run?

Because I need Him. Like a soft shroud of protection, a refuge. I need Him to be what I think I need. What I think I need is pretty limited. Pretty basic.

I ask for a kitten, when what I need is a lion.
For comfort, when I need defense.
I ask for a blanket when I could have a furnace.

And He is what I need. The trouble is, He is so much more. My low expectations limit how I see His character and provision. He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we can ask or imagine.

As His people, people with a true relationship with our Father, we are summoned away from self-reliance into a place of childlike dependency on Him. God is able. More than able. He is willing to become what I cannot become for myself, take me places I never thought I could go.

When our hearts are aligned with the will of God, and our lives are lived out with his interests in mind (and by the way, his interests are in his kingdom and his glory—not necessarily in our comfort) we can ask in faith, trusting, believing that he truly answers. Because he will.

I always said I didn’t want to raise support. I said I didn’t want to be dependent on others for my needs. Neither did I want to be dependent on God! And often, when I prayed it seemed my requests went unheeded. But the moment I stepped out in faith, my requests automatically aligned themselves more with the purposes I know to be God’s in this world. And he has provided. Completely and abundantly. This has been one of the biggest faith-builders of my life, this journey. But it required that I seek him first, and then get out of my “boat.”

It’s not that God doesn’t care about our little requests. It’s not that he doesn’t want us to appreciate “life abundantly.” But I think we need to remember sometimes that he sees the end from the beginning, and he knows what true abundant life means. What it is. Lots of times he uses those little requests we make to build our faith… but sometimes he knows it will actually harm us in the long run to have the things we think we desire. The secret to having what we desire is to view our desires through the lens of God’s perspective and align them with his purpose.

He wants us to ask, because the act of asking acknowledges his sovereignty and his desire to supply for us, and causes us to consider why we want what we do. It acknowledges our relationship with him as our Father.

When we protect God, we put him in a box that limits the way he moves. True trust, making honest requests and believing God actually wants to step in, requires surrendering far too much of the control I treasure. I have to recognize that “control” and “protection” are his job, not mine.

What if our sincere faith gives him not more room to fail, but more room to prove Himself faithful and make his glory known?